Time Line -- Bad

1970 - Born in Metairie, Louisiana.
1972 - Broke Arm
1974 - School. Very traumatic.
1974 - Sean is born
1975 - Choked by teacher in school. Moved to St. Francis Xavier.
1978 - Major issues with teasing at school
1983 - I and two girls accuse Troy Walker of having said a bad word. It's a lie.
1984 - I swing a bar at Sean, scarring his face.
1985 - The Descent. Teasing picks up in high school.
1986 - Leave school. Go into room.
1986 - Enter Coliseum Medical Center (i.e. Mental Hospital)
1987 - Leave Coliseum Medical Center
1989 - After two more high-schools, graduate high-school.
1990 - Meet Crystal Guillory, second girlfriend.
1992 - Crystal and I marry.
1995 - Develop "Crush" on Crystal's sister, Kirby. I do not tell her and experience immense anxiety and depression over six months.
1995 - Abruptly leave first job, separate with Crystal, and move to Jetmore, Kansas. Ask friend for help with suicide because "I am incapable of love." He declines.
1995 - Move back to Metairie, Louisiana.
1995 - Meet Raye McGowen. We move in together in a matter of weeks.
1996 - Raye and I marry.
1996 - Laid off from Goldtree. I work for myself as graphic designer, prepress expert, and copywriter in ad agencies.
1997 - Become a freelance writer.
1999 - Failing that, I go back to prepress.
2000 - Receive a job at Rampage Systems in Waltham, MA. Raye and I move to Boston.
2001 - I decide to start my own support business.
2001 - Begin The Computer Valet, working at night and on weekends.
2002 - Leave Rampage with a month notice and begin The Computer Valet.
2005 - Am very successful, but feel enormously squeezed. Start to make large mistakes. I am overworked and severely depressed.
2005 - Tell inappropriate joke at business meeting and am asked to leave. I told joke out of anger and fear, angry at the success of my business.
2005 - Hurricanes Katrina and Rita affect both my and Raye's families in Louisiana and Texas. My parents lose their house and Raye's mother has an emotional setback that requires her to go into hospital.
2005 - Begin work at Sicklebrook Services on their helpdesk.
2006 - Move with Raye to Houston, TX to be closer to family. Move in with Raye's sister, Taffy.
2006 - Diagnosed with C.Difficle infection. Many months of searching and small amount of medication knock it out.
2007 - Develop "Crush" on co-worker at Sicklebrook. Go to therapy. Decide I am just hiding the fact that I hate job and try to quit, but am unsuccessful. (Owner talks me out of it.)
2007 - Stress of job increases due to high employee turnover and my taking on additional responsibilities.
2007 - Planned trip to Sedona, AZ with friends from Boston. Spend second to last night of trip considering suicide because, at 37, I feel like I've never gotten my professional life in order. I consider feigning illness to skip out on a rafting trip to find a peak from which to jump.
2008 - Spend many months assailing myself with self-talk about my inability to step up to the struggles of personnel management. Approach many mornings at work shaking from anxiety.
2008 - Experience "nervous breakdown" and leave job for three days.
2008 - While in Boston for annual company meeting, experience worsening panic-attack. I resign from job immediately. I drive around area attempting to find friends. Desperately want to jump from Tobin bridge. I do not. a.
2008 - I come back to Houston in bad shape.